Welcome to the posting side! As others have said, you've laid out quite a case: Your life has clearly become unmanageable (blackout driving, losing jobs, etc.) The next step is the most important one: Do not drink. When the occasions arise when you would normally drink to cope (they will), you need to figure out how to do something different instead. The good news is, you won't feel deprived and like you are missing out forever, it will be tough at the beginning but with the support of other people (here or IRL), if you want it...you will absolutely be able to do it. No excuses. We are here with you.
