Bir,
The main thing is not to drink. The world owes me nothing. The brain damage will remain and knowing that drinking makes it worse is a great reason to not start ever again.
My boss actually looks down on me sometimes as he know I stopped being a drunk. The whole support thing is there in lip service, but active drunks look at quitters and non drinkers as weak. I did. Except the next day. The non drinkers, e.g. my wife, had tons of energy. I was a wreck.
I accept this way forward. Fine with me. I made my bed. It could be so much worse.
Waking up clean is step 1 each day. I started out this morning w a yoga series. It was nice.
Just finished breakfast w some leftover brisket spinich wraps. Amazing.
Thanks.