Originally Posted by
biminiblue 
I don't give an inch when it comes to my sober time.
The reason I don't is that I was sober for 18 years and started drinking again. I used all those little ploys, "It was just for one day, I've been sober for two weeks," etc.
I don't want to drink again ever.
Your mileage may vary. If you aren't 100% behind staying completely sober, that's certainly your choice. But for me, I want to be sober. I don't ever want to let it slip back into those, "It's okay," thoughts.
When I started up again, I was able to moderate for a very long time. Years, actually. I would have drinks on "special" occasions.
Guess where I ended up in time?
My continuous sober time is precious to me. I don't ever want to make excuses or give myself permission.
this is what scares me to death. I’m 33 and worried about going for years and failing. 18 years in forever and you were able to bounce back. Inspiring. But that’s my exact fear, however crazy that may seem.
Feeling ok today. Girlfriend left on business until
wednesday. Used to be a huge trigger as I’m alone now. Spending time with my puppy and reading. Lots of seltzer. Ride a few waves out already. This is day 21.