Ladybird...I can empathize with everything you have shared.....you don't post too often and I don't think you are too harsh.....
It looks, to me, like he h as left you with the short end of the stick....and, abdicated his human responsibilities....It must feel sooo unfair!
You can take pride in that you have not left your human responsibilities behind....
Life is not a popularity contest....
Please don't give up on yourself....
You are good enough....and, every situation has room to be improved....
Maybe, you filter does need some adjustment...lol...
Maybe, you have been too isolated for too long, and, maybe a bit depressed....it would be very understandable....
Who cares what he thinks and what his social circle thinks. Your contract is not with him...it is with God/Universe.....