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When I was drinking off and on that is called binge drinking.
It is as bad, or worse, as daily drinking when it comes to kindling.
Mixing binge drinking, exercise, and low calorie intake is how i nearly crashed my car due to panic attacks or something.
My son was with me once when I had to pull over several times in a 5 mile stretch. It was terrifying.
I made it this clean by suffering through the hellish craves. When my av would tell me...you have been good, have a drink...that is when the hell ramps up.
For us addicts, you included, every occasion is one to drink.
Welcome. This place saved my life.
Thanks.