I am sorry for everything that you're going through right now, AAPJ.
Sometimes I think the "my life got so much better when I stopped drinking" posts are of people on a pink cloud. Or they're people where alcohol was their problem, and not their solution.
I don't say that my life has gotten better since I stopped drinking. My life has gotten more honest since I stopped drinking. What I mean is, I'm much more able to be true to myself and experience life as it is.