DesertGuy - I know you are depressed about things. I have been where you are exactly. I moved to LA and got an apartment and had no job. I was broke, and started looking for any job I could get. I was down to my last 50 bucks, no credit card, old beater car when I landed a warehouse job packing things for shipment. I went to work and did a ton of overtime and dug my way out of poverty. You can do it too. Don't give up, stop drinking, take any job you can and get started. You can do it, you are young enough to turn things around and I wish you the best. Come here and post as needed.