Well done.
I tried the "drinking normally" thing after 140 days. Let me tell you it's a waste of time.
The same issues are still there.
Firstly...I always drink to get drunk. So as soon as I had one sip, I was on a mission to get pretty drunk.
Secondly, the hangovers are getting worse. They reawaken the cravings and they reset your recovery mentally for sure.
So yeah, attempting moderation is just impossible. I either want a lifetime of being a slave to drink, of anxiety, depression and obsessing over alcohol....or I choose sobreirty and all the benefits that brings. There really is no choice to make.