Desert Guy, truly there are services out there that are meant to help people like you, us, they exist from community, county and state services. You may even qualify for a medicaid program in which case your care could be evaluated, needs assessed and help provided for you. I want you to know that there are people that care. Please look into some of the programs. You deserve much compassion and a hand to help you. Many of us know how hard it is to ask.