Originally Posted by Primativo

We've all been there. The reason you are feeling so horrible and dark is because of the alcohol. If you stop drinking the dark thoughts will go.

On my last binge I felt so bad I was calling emergency services saying I felt like killing myself. I didn't want to kill myself, and wasn't seriously considering it, but I felt like it as I had such horrible dark thoughts. I can't quite put into words how bad I felt. It was literally hell on earth. Whereas 5 months later after stopping drinking I am in the exact same house with same life but I feel absolutely fine. The only thing which changed is no drinking. Drinking took me to hell which is why I'll never drink again.