Wanting to stay sober more than anything else has an equal companion in my thinking. The absolute fact that drinking will not work. It won't be fun, it won't make me less anxious, it won't help current challenges, it won't make me feel good. And I won't be able to control it.
Riding the ups, the downs and the blahs is just simply living life like an adult. Drinking, at least for me, is impetuous, impulsive and totally childish. It was hard for me to face that, but I just don't have a right to drink.
I strongly encourage you to reconsider pumpkin beer as being a true temptation. Barf. Maybe a pumpkin latte? Double barf
but some people like them.