Ah yes, the AV...or the selective amnesia/memory syndrome. It's powerful as a hijacking.
Mid 30's...great; lot's of time left on this sphere. And cool on the music; it, in many forms, is transformative. I too listen to a variety. As to Shakes, yup...big admirer.
If time permits, may I ask what brought you to a recovery message board some years ago? Do you consider yourself an alcoholic? If so, has it progressed poorly?
Best!