Thanks for the response Cordeliatolear,
I also have quit and returned many times..although usually for no more than 2 months so I am kind of in No Man's Land. I think (and hope) I am just ready to get past the drunken weekends and memories of glory-day 20's; I'm ready to move on to a new life (I'm in my mid 30's). It's funny you mention music, I have been listening to a lot of different types of music since I've been sober.
AV is your alcoholic voice, the thought in your head that tells you to pick up the drink, that you can surely handle just one drink.
I take it your a Shakespeare fan? I've had MacBeth on my to-be-read list for a while now.