Realisation.
Well last week I realised something.....
Ever since I was 16 have drank alcohol most days. 16 - 29 with friends most nights. Then I met my wife at 29 and for the last 17 years we have both spent most nights her with a bottle of wine and me with beers. Drinking until we fall asleep. Sex about 1 or twice a year.
We both had good jobs and been very busy so you don’t really class yourself as having an alcohol problem. Losing my mother (who was an alcoholic) 2 years ago made me read so to the disease and it’s been a reverlation to my own situation. I’ve cut down the drink to Friday Saturday only for the past few weeks.
I am now starting dry October tomorrow.
I’ve feeling very regretful of just sitting here looking out the window and drinking most nights for the past 17 years and feeling a little shocked. All this may sound a little mad but I just thought I was a heavy drinker.