Every day you remain sober you are making your amends x I too was a horrible person whilst drinking, however I am not naturally a horrible person!!! Its really important to remember this, when drinking we had little control of how we acted, what we said and what we did. That is the power of alcohol. That is what it does to us. Also, please rememeber too, those actions were of someone who was unwell, this does not define who you are.
Self love and forgiveness of self is soooooo important lovely x You have put the drink down, which is pretty amazing, but also incredibly brave too. You deserve love, you deserve forgiveness and you sure as hell deserve recovery.
Be kind to yourself, because you’re doing amazingly well x