Hi Izzy. You are not alone. Most of us have felt this way. I am almost 52 and had several attempts and relapses but finally got sober for good around 50. If I can do it, you can do it. Life is so much better sober. There are still problems and bad feelings at times. But that’s life and everything is better sober. I hope you will keep coming to this forum. Folks here are so supportive and helpful.