Izzy,
Yup. I'm the same age as you and have been drinking to get drunk since I was a little kid.
Imo...the body can only take so much abuse. Everyone is different. I hit the wall in my early 40's but the addiction and lack of education kept me drinking until I was late 40's.
Anyway, quitting was a living hell that I hope I never forget. This place, like AA meetings, keeps the memory alive.
I was paranoid and agoraphobic for a long time. Most of that is gone now.
So now I am ready to drink again. Right?
That was the uneducated me.
Being clean is how I was designed to be.
I am drug free other than some otc vits and lisinopril for bp.
I read here every day and post as well.
Sr is like a sobriety place holder. If I lose sr....I lose my place.
Not without a fight.
Thanks.