Originally Posted by
Ghostlight1 
Thank you.
Yes, this could be a turning point. I wish that for you.
I can relate to you and your story and it makes me sad. Losing my friends still makes me sad.
Let yourself grieve . I know I had to, with a bottle of course for quite awhile.
But that's the past for me and enough of it has gone by where I feel better about things.
I've been sober nine and a half years now. The pain is still there, their memories in my heart. I'm living sober partly for them. Partly for myself. It's what they would have wanted.
Wow, 9.5 years! That is amazing. I hope that will be me one day.
All I know is that drinking is killing me and I already suffer from a heart condition (that will eventually kill me) and I want to be able to know that I died sober. For myself and for my husband and my son. Last thing I want is to die drunk. I want to make sure that when my time comes, I left here clean.
As silly as it may sound.