Congratulations on 5 months, and advance congrats on many, many more! Now, on to the “tough talk”...
In looking back at your time here, it seems like there were several time periods when you felt “different”, and like a “switch was flipped”...confident and secure. Then, your posting would slow to a stop, only to have you return later to start anew. I’m bringing this up just so you really make certain with yourself that this isn’t an early red flag. Best to you!