For what is worth it didn't sound like a Iecture to me- but I didn't read anything I thought was accusing you of that either, so...
I very much identify with the idea that just not drinking is the tip of the iceberg.
I tried filling my void with all kinds of things - including recovery - until I finally realised I'd never fill it, but I might heal it.
That took a while, and it also took a lot of courage and a lot of patience for me, and I'm not suffused with either of those things.
I focused on finding meaning and purpose. I focused on finding me - the essential me - I'd been scared to be alone with myself my whole life.
its a big job - but noones more qualified than you to do it, ss
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