Dear Snufkin,
It is so difficult to pull out of a hole of anxiety,feeling alone,depressed and hopeless. I was in that hole just over 5 weeks ago and not for the first time either.
It can be done, it's not easy. But I was sick and tired of feeling that way permanently. I go to meetings (not easy with anxiety), I have a sponsor, I stick around here and I am kind to myself by eating properly and drinking lots of lovely water. I use anything I can to stay away from alcohol. This all sounds a bit blah and trite Snufkin but it's working so far and I shall add to my armoury as I go along.
Sending much Love dear Snufs and praying that you can get out off your personal hell and back to recovery. Baby steps and maybe rehab would help, just a thought.
SP