yeah I wasnt in denial I was oblivious. Now after i had quit i was in denial for about a year. then i realized golly gee i was an alcoholic !
resigning yourself to it cow isnt all that great either. I did that with smoking. i jsut figured its just who i am. I did it with booze too too some degree. but that line of reasoning didnt get me quit.
BUT for what its worth. I walk on the other end of the spectrum now. mr lean mean fit clean diet clean habits etc.. dont do any of those naughty things andn.... and... well it takes .a lot of work and I wont lie i ask myself every now and then who am i? am i the Obese 2 packs a day smoking 15-20 beers a nigth guy? or am i the lean fit vegan runner? who am I? I wont lie that obese heaving smoker and drinker is still in there somewhere. I know he's in there. But I just try not to let him out. Once in a while he lashes out howevrer and trys to drag me back that way. Its a continual battle.