What I don’t miss
So my ex Ah came back into my life after 3 years.
For a short while I was sucked in again by the Mr charmer, Mr funny, Mr caring.
But as everyone knows on here that’s very short lived.
I’m not gonna to say it was easy to break away from him.
I’m still in the process of running in the other direction, but this time with full knowledge of the person he is and the future I would have with him if I stayed.
So for my own therapy I want to post everything I don’t miss, please feel free to post what you don’t miss about your situation.
I don’t miss...
Cleaning all the bottles up in the morning
The lame excuses to go to the shop to get alcohol.
The drunken rants and the utter crap that use to come out of his mouth.
The clothes covered in red wine
The smashed glasses where he always dropped them.
The blowing hot and cold ,making me feel like I’d done something wrong.
The laying in bed on a Sunday all day after serious heavy drinking all weekend and i’d be expected to pick him up because he was so down.
Feeling like his mother
Being his constant support blanket
The snoring from him passing out
Baby sitting him on nights outs !!
Every day out or night out being planned round alcohol.
The tears I cried
The arguments you caused
The tiptoeing around you
The manipulation
The holidays were you were the loudest there and the drunkest
The embarrassment
I won’t miss any of the above you’ve made me realise I deserve so much more.
If I could say these things to him I would but he would never listen... so this is what I would say if I thought you he would.
I hate how you made me feel alone.
I hate how you never put me first, you never asked me how I was, never took time to listen to me and how my day was.
You would never take me out on a date and drive it was always me or a cab !
You never made me breakfast in bed or cared for me when I had a bad day or felt unwell.
You never made me a cup of tea !!
We’re was you when I needed you !!!! And so many times I truly needed you !!
Looking back our whole relationship it was about your needs and what you wanted.
I didn’t stand a chance and now I wish you luck because I know I deserve better they say people come into your life as a blessing or a lesson, and I believe your a lesson of not what I want of need in my life good bye
I loved the person I thought you was not the person you are.
I will find someone who will make me a priority in there life and not make me feel second best.
I will find someone that will love me unconditional and I will love them back.