Good for you coming here to vent.
I do it all the time. Thank goodness for SR!
Sober life can be hard. Every day we choose not to take the easy way out. We get up in the morning wide awake and go to bed wide awake. No checking out. It takes courage. It still wears me out emotionally at times.
You are doing a big and beautiful thing by staying sober, it benefits not just you but the world around you. Keep going. We've got your back.