Originally Posted by venuscat

I think it is a significant shift too.

I have just been talking about this with another SR on Messenger....for some of us, no matter what happens or how ill we make ourselves, there is this persisting to desire to drink. Sure, the AV eases up over time.....absolutely....but for some of us the niggle of resentment never goes away....or maybe it takes a long time.

Or maybe shifting to a new country and everything I have done was just a bit much and my AV started screaming again....my point is I accept that I just might always have this come up occasionally. This resentment that I can't drink. That's what meetings are for....awesome to stand up and share that. The laughter is brilliant...the jokes....awww, poor Suzanne, tired of having an awesome life are you? It's too hard? What, because things go wrong....that's called living girl....and what else, you resent looking 10 years younger than your age and being vibrant? Sure, of course.... It goes on...you resent being a valuable member of the community do you?

My head is a dangerous place....if I listen to the fears and the stupid thoughts, I would be in trouble. So I tell them thanks for sharing and get support. And as time goes by, I notice that I am way stronger in my recovery than I thought I was...one day at a time. ♥