Thank you, Baker for a heartfelt & detailed post. I'm sure it will help motivate many.
The entire list could be my list. For years I clung to the idea that I could stick to a safe limit of 1-2. All I needed was more willpower. I allowed my dependency to grow, as I failed each time. Round the clock drinking & a ruined life is where I ended up. I'm so glad you're looking at the heartache it has caused you. Your desire to be free of it will bring you a wonderful new life.