He just wants to get back to "his life" and SHOW me his changes, he says he needs the CHANCE to show me...
He is already showing you………..
He just wants to get back to "his life"
OF course he does, he didn't want to be where he is now. He want to get back to his drinking and back to not caring how that makes you feel or what kind of a stable life is it for his child.
So you love him, so what, has your love for him had any impact on his drinking so far? Alcohol will always be his first love, you and your child will always come second.
You seem beaten down by his controlling persistence. You also seem afraid to tell him how you feel and what you want, are you afraid and if so, what are you afraid of?
Communication is the basis for any relationship and without that, it’s not really any kind of a good relationship.