Originally Posted by
daveycrockett 
I did do a lot of cleaning over the past week. I started to get rid of the wine boxes and got rid of about 50 so far. I cleaned the bathroom and the shower and toilet.
And this - totally amazing. 50 wine boxes gone! That's tremendous. The cleaning.
I think that perhaps you don't realize that you are healing? Is everything perfect? Ready to go running out the door to a social function? Nope. Miles from where you were - yes.
The healing of the mind is slow, it's also not all straight ahead, there are setbacks (which you have experienced) but there is also movement forward.
Imagine where you might get with a little help. Will you ever find a cure-all, I don't know? What if you were to get help and it only improved, let's say, 70 percent? 80 percent? Would that not be so much better than where you are now? Remember, you were not always at this place mentally, therefore it stands to reason that you do not have to stay in that place.