..BUT this time I'm sober! It's 5 am here. One of the things AV tells me is if I don't drink then I wont be able to sleep... but then I realised when I drink I stay up all night drinking anyway... so if I'm not gonna sleep I may as well be sober while I do it.
So anyway, I have sat here for hours and absolutely
devoured this website - I have read so much, my head is buzzing in a really good way! I have so much inspiration and information now, I can't stop reading and finding out so much. I feel so inspired (or it could be tiredness induced delirium, but I'll go with inspired
).
I have a plan. I feel like I now know what to do next. Tomorrow will be hard because I will be tired, but I will be backhere tomorrow, and the next day and the next day ad infinitum. I am going to do it this time - it's no good hoping I don't drink when I am the only person who can physically put that drink in my mouth!