Hi all.
5.30 pm here and I am just chilling in my room. Gonna watch some netflix soon. I've had a lovely day. Went down to the pool early for some sun and swimming then had breakfast. Had a manicure and pedicure and went for the luxury pedicure for a little treat. Hot stones and hot wax and massage. Lush! Feet like a baby's bum now!! Standard trip to Target! Love it there. Went in for one thing and spent $100 ooops!! And then I discovered somewhere new... a place called My Sister's Closet! Omg!!!!! Its a shop that sells all consigment clothes shoes handbags and jewellery. So all pre owned stuff and the owners get a cut of whatever is sold. There were some fantastic things in there! I got 4 tops, a bracelet and 2 rings and I could have spent a ton more but I ran out of cash!! Maybe I'll go back tomorrow...... lol.
My crew were meeting at 5pm in the bar for "wine hour". I could go to be sociable and obviously not drink but to be honest I really don't want to. I am quite happy to chill out by myself. I am realising that it isn't because I am hiding away more that the ONLY reason I would go to meet up is so I could drink. Am not really that interested in socialising with everyone sober which tells me I have spent a lot of my time doing stuff I didn't really enjoy JUST because I could drink!
The last time I Was in Phoenix at this hotel was in March. My crew and I were required to operate an extra flight home so we flew out as passengers. I drank on the flight all the way there. Champagne, wine and port. Fell asleep on the plane and woke before landing feeling rotten and started swigging red wine from the little miniature bottles that I had been given to take off with me. By the time I got to the hotel I felt wrecked and passed out in bed. Woke about 2am and drank the remaining bottles I had with me! Had an insatiable hunger so ordered a big fried breakfast on room service and felt bloated and disgusting after. It was so hot and I felt sick, anxious, depressed (for over drinking yet again) tired and irritable. Went to the shops for buts I needed which felt like I Was climbing Everest, was such an effort and came back to my room and tossed and turned trying to sleep before getting ready for work. It was awful. I felt and looked like a bag of shite.
This time has been soooo different. I woke up hangover free and had my coffee on the balcony with a beautiful view of the sun rising over the lake. Had my swim and healthy breakfast. Pamper time and shopping. And I feel genuinley happy and am ENJOYING myself. Alcohol completely robbed me of that. I only THOUGHT I Was enjoying myself when I drank. If I were to go and meet up and drink now, well tomorrow doesn't bear thinking about. And that's if I even made it to tomorrow. I have no idea where a drink will take me.
So, I am very happy to be in my room, I have some little nibbles with me and lime perrier water (sooo good) back to back forensics show on the tv (I adore forensics programmes) and netflix on hand. Beats getting drunk and waking up suicidal anyday!!!
