Well, it won't be like it was when you were a child (14 and under), because you are an adult now.
BUT, you can find new joy and fulfillment, with long term sobriety and by working on your recovery. Just removing what we're addicted to doesn't change our addictive thinking. That takes time and work, but it is possible. Hence AAs talking about being happy, joyous and free.
Just removing our crutch of choice (whether that be alcohol, drugs (illegal or over-the-counter), sex, porn, gambling, risk-taking shopping, eating (bingeing or purging) or whatever). Without recovery we are likely to cross addict, as it sounds like you have done. The compulsion just shifts onto something else.
Recovery is all about finding new and better ways to live life on life's terms, and get rid of that horrible restless, irritable and discontent that followed us around.
BB