Cooko well done on day one. In my experience getting sober with no support is v difficult. Thing is here you seem to have shame over accessing help but yet your family see you in that state. Yes ya a horrible place to be and although they don’t know at work eventually your ability to perform at work will suffer. It will take everything including your family that’s a fact been there lost everything due to my inability to get sober. This is real this is alcoholism and it’s serious