Overwhelm, pain and shut it off
Do you ever feel so overwhelmed with pain and overthinking? I can't sleep at night either at the minute. I am a processor and my brain is constantly on the go 😭 When I get like this I feel so tired of fighting everything, I want a break from being strong. I want to drown out the noise in my head or shut it off entirely. I want to reach for a beer and a fag and kick back and avoid dealing with all the stress and hurt for just one evening ( and yes I can stop at one evening) I know it won't take the pain away, but I'm on a waiting list for counselling. I know it's coming and I know patience is important, but I so want a break from it all 😭