You are DEFINATLY not alone
Sally,
Take this fear and confusion and hurt... and make it strength. Trust that you are being taken care of. You are reaching out, and you are open to receive the help... great step.
Now, I know the feelings... I am facing so many similar things. What will get you through is your faith.... in God... and yourself. You ARE equiped with all you need to handle this. And believe that you will.
I am praying for you
Meg