I had family over on Saturdayfir my daughters birthday. Put lots if effort in to decorating the garden, food etc. Husband went out to pick up a relative and of course that was my chance to knock back a load of wine before everyone arrived. I dont remember anything after about the first two hours. I dont know if I cleared up afterwards or if someone hepled me. The washing up was all done. Garden furniture was tidied. Someone had left their car at ours and taken a taxi home. I dont remember that. I dont remember ANYONE leaving.
My mum told me the next day that I shouldnt drink as I was drunk for the whole time. I am gutted, I wanted to enjoy the day.
Checked my fone this morning (monday) and I had a 15 minute phone call with someone at 8.15 last night and have no memory of it. I just keep doing it, day after day.
Re thinking my whole life now. Its gone beyond a joke
C