Check in as often as possible and don't give up. Commit to your sobriety by the hour- do whatever it takes. This is what will allow SR to help you. If you start to feel an urge, make a thread about it and you will get help. Do that as often as you need to! It's what I did in the beginning and it worked.
You don't have to life like this anymore- that pain is awful- I remember it like it was yesterday. Make a different choice today and you will wake up tomorrow with 1 day of sobriety under your belt. Do this for YOU.