I feel utterly wretched
Hello SR.
I feel as though my world is imploding. I cant put in to words how much I despise myself.
I dont know whats happening anymore.....black outs every day.
I cant cope or carry on. I cant mix with people anymore, it just becomes a drunkfest. I really need your help. AA isnt an option for me.
I just want to feel normal again.
Thats it. Thats all I can manage. Its all too overwhelming this morning. I want it to be tommorow so that I can say 'I didnt drink yesterday'.
Thats al
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