Rachel my lovely friend
It feels good to say your name huh? I know I like that I am me here now....I like that I have nothing to hide.
Anyway.....I read your post.....I din't know if this is OK to say but here goes.
I would not cope with my partner being a heavy drinker. I think that there would need to be more support for me....if people are unable to stop even for a while to be a support, then is there not a problem there? And how easily those with drinking problems will make sober people feel silly....this: "what? You're not going to have a drink with us?" .....err no.
What if you were on medication. Nick is....blood pressure meds that would interact very badly with alcohol....lots of meds interact badly with alcohol....
My mantra was: I am not drinking right now.
I said this over and over to people in the beginning.
I was like you....I DID NOT WANT to stop.....I just didn't want to die.
And saying it like that empowered me....people said oh, sure.
And I didn't have the huge panic of feeling so 'other' so 'different'.
I think your plan to go to more meetings is a very good idea.....draw all of the loving support around yourself that you can. And I hope I didn't overstep too much.
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