Originally Posted by
Laura3 
Because addicts got on my nerves during my childhood, ones in recovery too. I had a narcissistic aunt in aa
Hi Laura and welcome.
Your statement above made me think that perhaps you have PTSD or unresolved childhood trauma. Granted I’m doing ptsd work now so I perhaps have a ptsd lens right now. Your comment above about having so much conflict with others may suggest this. And I can understand why you would want professional help.
However to everyone else’s point, if You can get to the point in which you can take the support from others (ie ex addicts) while leaving the
rest, that may prove to be quite useful to you. In other words, take what you need from AA meetings and try working with that?