Hi starsabove
Things like this don't just go away - emotions are likely to be a little raw for a while.
For me things like sexual abuse are actually crimes of power.
An adult man preyed on a teenage girl - no matter how old you felt, no matter what happened in the relationship - you were preyed upon.
Sometimes we rationalise it's not such a big deal because we don;t want to deal with things like guilt or shame - I know I did for many years.
But you did nothing wrong and nothing to 'make' this happen. This was not your crime,
D