Originally Posted by
Obladi 
That's exactly what I do, but I'm not sure if the not caring or the drinking comes first. I think it's both.
Then I realized I could "not care" sober just as well as I can if I'm drinking. Like, life was pretty empty drunk because it was also pretty empty sober, so not drinking has got to be better than drinking.
Am I talking in riddles or does that make sense?
Sorry you're sad today. That's natural, I think but I'm sorry nonetheless.
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For me it's work, family life. I'm afraid I will lose everything before I fix anything. I m sick and tired o going on these benders
I don't wish this upon anybody. And I won't lie but this alcoholism has made progress where all my immediate family knows about it, just last night I got very emotional, my wife's friend was there my kids and there I was buzzed explaining my emotions, I guess I just have skeletons in my closet that I just can't get out(sorry not skeletons but just issues that need explaining), just too personal, but nevertheless they have to get out, nothing criminal of course but they have to get out