hi and welcome
I eroded a lot of trust with my drinking. I promised to quit many times - I lied and said I was sober when I wasn't...I missed many important events for family and friends cos I was too wasted to go out...I got away with secret drinking (or thought I did)...
I'm a good guy - but you'd never know it from that behaviour. I ended up the neighbourhood drunk. Mothers would shoo their kids across the street to avoid me.
It took me a little while to rehabilitate my reputation but I did
Until I proved myself, I got accused of drinking a lot because that's what I did (at least for the past 20 years anyway)
It stung but I could see their point of view.
Whats seemed like an eternity to me and a massive journey of self discovery was a few weeks to them.
My advice is be the person you want to be seen as - no secret drinking, no hiding or lying about drinking, no sliips no matter how justified you feel about them......
people will see real change in you and their response will reflect that
I hope you find out whats going on healthwise.
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