In 10 days I am going on another round of my "business trip".
I think I've just failed my 30 days no complaining challenge because I am complaining and not offering any solution.
I am going into full self-sabotage mode already.
It reminds me of my lame attempt to run away from home when I was 18. Looking back I regret I didn't do it. Because now I realize I was in "no reasoning out" situation.
I made a call home and my jerk brother lied to me that my mother was in a hospital with a heart attack to get me back home.
It was her favorite tactic to manipulate me into anything - that she was about to have a heart attack.
To be honest I was a homish girl and was scared to go into nowhere.
My instincts new better, false reasoning failed me.
I have to run now. I am scared again.