80 days - the freedom of not choosing
Never been this sober this long in my life besides before I ever touched the poison.
What I am feeling these days is generally just the residual side effects of fully having accepted that I am never drinking again. These are positive side effects - think less about booze, crave it almost not at all, wistful recollections pass me by, I just don't entertain any thoughts of the poison seriously - I know I'm not drinking. I've removed the option.
Removing the option this time, finally, has given me a freedom I've never felt in previous attempts at sobriety. I just don't drink, there's no option.
The rest of my life needs the work anyhow. Hard to believe I made it this far and have so much, after having sacrificed so long and wasted so so so much time and money and life to the poison.
The trash is not worth it. Alcohol is garbage, it's poison, it's demon fuel - sure other people can enjoy it, but I lost that ability long ago.
And now, finally sober, I am free to spend my life on the things that matter.