Kat - I was a person who kept a drink on my night stand so when I woke up shaking I could take a sip. At the end of my 30 yr drinking career, I was completely dependent on it & didn't see how I'd ever stop. I know how fragile we are in those early days of trying to let go of it. But every day we're a little bit stronger, a little more determined - and happy to be getting free. As I've said, I have over 10 yrs. sober now - so I know you can do this.