I'm hanging on so far...it's hard but I'm hanging in there...and I will say it easier this time than it has been befoe....thanks to all of you! I have someone to vent to and that does help. I am a survivor...I will survive...I keep telling myself that...I've been divorced since 91'...he was a pot head and drunk...never admitted he had a problem...and he always liked other women...since then I have raised 3 kids...2 have turned out great! one that stuggles with depression and all the things that go with that. Everyone says I look young for my age and concider me attractive and I have a friendly personality...so why can't I find someone normal???