You said, "I don't know I guess I'm asking for too much?"
The man has no more to give. You're still demanding that he make the first move by reaching out to you?
You said, "He's my husband...I confide in him...I look to him for comfort. Just a hug maybe and a "its going to be ok" "we will figure this out together"....or maybe just a "do what you gotta do to get better" "don't worry about the kids, go to an AA meeting"
Where were you when he needed to confide in you, when he needed you to comfort him, when he needed you to hug him, when he needed you by his side to care for those children?
And then the last one -
You said: "But I know im asking for too much....what's wrong with me?!?!? Ugh"
Do you not really know what's wrong with you?