Love my sobriety. Proud of it. Understand that it now and will continue to provide me with meaning, hope, opportunity and all the most important things in life.
However, and I know the general response to this, sometimes it really sucks.
One of my closest and best friends is having a wedding party tonight. Incredibly cool and diverse and fun crowd. Instead of being able to enjoy myself, I popped by, gave my boy a pound and left after 10 minutes. Although I knew I wasn't going to drink, I felt the anxiety and frustration.
And now headed home and not able to enjoy that night of meeting people, talking laughing etc, I'm going to watch a movie a go to bed.
Is my sobriety worth it? Bet my life it is. But is there some times a sad, frustrating cost? Yes, there is that too.