Hi Ladybird, I repeatedly revisited a relationship with an ex. To this day I don't know for sure if he is alcoholic but I suspect he is. Each attempt ended up the same. He could never give me the commitment and stability I need from a partner.
Our last "visit" as a couple was in 1999. It was short-lived and hurtful.
However, our feelings were real and we have a bond that is still alive today, but it is from a distance and it is a nice, supportive friendship. From time to time he's tried to rekindle the romance but I have zero interest and he accepts that. He's a wonderful friend but an awful partner, for me.