I must be learning
In the last week iv had a few interesting conversations regarding alcohol.
One with someone who had quit drinking for 1 year due to binging, went to meetings, and then realised she can moderate on holiday and have a few on holidays now and leave it at that (im not saying this as a message to promote anyone going back to drinking or give anyone false hope) at first my little brain went into overdrive at hearing this, my AV bounced off every wall back and forth with this idea as of course this is what I dream of being able to do. But deep down inside I know this will NEVER be me, and despite my wobble last week and not thinking properly, I made it through with out picking up, and managed to talk myself out of allowing myself to believe I can one day moderate, somewhere inside I'm learning. Learning to be honest with myself and my situation. 7 and a half months sober and not giving up!